My illness is progressing and making my everyday life more difficult...I am feeling very frustrated.
I realised about seven weeks ago that my chest pains were back and sharp ! It was very worrying as it could have come across as heart pains but since my heart has been cleared it can only be my lungs...but I did not make much of this at the time...also I was feeling overly exhausted....again I did not make much of this as I had busy looking after other family members fully for the last 8 weeks and little about me...to my detriment...a very big mistake as the scars left by my illness in my lungs are not reversible !
The damages done to my lungs, once scared, are not reversible... I am so upset for letting this happen and not taking better care of myself !
My body is giving me more more and more alarm signals of pain : all over pains (flu-like symptoms...this uncomfortable achy muscle / joints pains....) , imagine waking in the morning not feeling refreshed from sleep, combined with that worst day of flu where you are so exhausted you can barely raise your arm. That is how sufferers feel from the moment they open their eyes to the time they sleep every day with no relief, frequently daily over exhaustion , sharp chest pains, my right arm / shoulder is giving me more and more problem, needle pain and numbness which could also be linked to sarcoidosis affecting my nervous system (to be investigated further) ...
Enough is enough, I am taking things back under control and I am doing everything to keep things under CONTROL...I AM captain of my body after all !
I have started back my serious clean eating: fresh fruits, fresh vegetables, grown grains, healthy source of lean protein, supplements and I am focusing on my training, my clients and my new projects...I just need to pace myself and do this in my own time....
My life is regulated by compulsory rests / naps , to allow my body to recover and recuperate. I would not be able to function normally without my rest.
Sometimes it is very frustrating as my over exhaustion stops me from achieving my planned daily schedule.
But I need to be patient with myself and kind to my body !
This is very difficult because lately I have been feeling like a ticking time bomb and worried of how much time I had left to achieve all the wonderful things I want to achieve in life...
So I just DO...maybe a bit more slowly than I would like to ...but I DO and this is what matters as I dont want to live with regrets...
So my friends, because Life is so precious. Grab every moment of joy, happiness and share it with your loved ones. You never know when it might be too late...live your life NOW !
Love Life, love to Live.
Arriane Eva Morrin
Health Consultant, owner & entrepreneur
Aem Health and Fitness
Aim for better Living
Tel: + 44 (0)797 590 4903
www.aemhealthandfitness.ni
www.aemhealthfitness.com
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